One mans Trash another man Treasures

Last summer Ian and I went to the thrift store to find some amazing deals....Well did we ever.  I found a really cute white crib that just so happened to have the color sticker that was 50% off that day.  I really wanted it and Ian thought I was crazy b/c Logan had a crib and at the time No baby # 2 was on the way. But how could I pass up a sleigh bed crib for $29. Yes it needed to maybe be painted but I paint everything any ways so it would be fine.  (Oh i just remembered Logan's crib need the metal bottom thing so that is how I got Ian to let me buy it:) So we bought it and it has been sitting ever since.  Well we pulled it out last weekend to paint it off white to match the hutch I painted and found that we where missing some parts.  So i went on line to get the instructions on how to put it together and see about ordering the parts to find that It had been RECALLED.  My first thought was YAY we could get a new crib then immediately my second thought was is that honest to buy a crib for $29 at a thrift store and then send in the recall to get a new one.  I came to the conclusion that yes it was OK for me to send in the recall b/c that is why it is there to keep your babies safe.  So we did everything they said to send in and away it went.  I was a little nervous (well I am just in nature anyway a nervous person) but you just hope your sending in the right stuff and will they really send you a new one ect ect.  Well I just got the e-mail saying they received all the screws, Pictures, showing we had the crib and will be sending our new crib today!!! YAY! we are getting a new crib.  I have no Idea what crib we are getting but I know it has to be better then the one we have. I will post picture when we get the new one.  I was going to paint the old one off white to match but I will not paint the new one we will just let it be:) It makes me want to go to the thrift store and see what other Treasures I can find. 

The Verdict is in!

Today we went to the doctor...My poor poor Doctor.  So two weeks ago I meet with his Partner who really helped me feel good about pushing more for doing a VBAC.  My Doctor was OK with me "trying" to do one but really thought that I was not a very good candidate.  But after talking to the other doctor I felt like I actually could be a good candidate.  So Any way today was the day to talk to him about it.  I really Love my OB I think he is a great doctor and really listens to me... We were in his office for 45 min talking to him.  I had a list of all things I wanted to talk about because I always forget:) He was so patient with me Answered all my questions. We came to the point that my body willing he would let me go over and try for a VBAC.  I was still torn on what to do.  I have anxiety and I like the fact that with a c-section I know when she will come and no surprises.  But I REALLY wanted a VBAC but was so affraid that I would labor again for 24 hours just to end in an emergency C-section.  So it really had been weighing heavy on me what to do.  (  I have prayed about this and came to peace that if I was showing signs of progressing that I would try for VBAC but if by week 36 if I was not I would just do a C-section b/c a planned c-section is much better experience (so I hear) then an emergency.  So after talking with him about Several things We went ahead and schedule a C-section so I could have the day I want/availability with the known that I could CX it at anytime.  While we where scheduling it with the Nurse the Doc decided to go back and look at notes from having Logan... Well lets just say the decision was made I NO longer had options. 
-background:
When you have a C-section they cut horizontal on the outside and depending on the baby and how it is in your tummy they cut you horizontal or vertical on the inside....If you have any vertical cuts/ or tears you are at high risk for your Uterine wall to rupture during a birth which results bleed to death and other complication. 
So with that said apparently while pulling Logan out of the womb I got a tear going vertical that needed to be stitched up therefore resulting in NO VBAC:( 
To be honest it was a huge relief to hear this....Not because I did not want a VBAC I really did but not knowing the unknown and just waiting was really stressing me out.  Now I can plan and be ready. Ians mom already bought her tkt to fly down here and help so she will be here when we schedule it and I just feel at peace with it.  So we will have baby girl June 30 @ 7:30am.  Logan will still be asleep when we go in and so it will work out that by the time he gets up and dressed etc.  I should be ready for them to come up and see baby!! The Doc says because it is scheduled that I will most likely be able to go home a day earlier then I did with Logan b/c you just heal faster which was music to my ears I wanted to leave the hospital so bad with Logan I was there for 5 days.  
I am really sad that I will never have the opportunity to deliver V but I think I have come to peace with it. It was a really hard road excepting it after Logan but I think It will be much easier emotionally this time b/c I know its going to go down this way!
(I know I used c-section and VBAC alot just in case you did not notice I thought I would point it out:) VBAC= vaginal birth after cesarean I had this whole confo with this girl and at the end she goes now what is a vbac so just in case I am not assuming anymore. 

President Monsen said:

Never Let a problem to be solved

become more important

Than a person to

BE LOVED

PINK

That’s right folks PINK we are having a baby girl!! I know what some are you are thinking, I thought you were done with Logan.  We I really felt like I was but then we really got thinking about it and with not really knowing where I was going to go medical wise we decided we should maybe have another before the option was taken away completely. And then if we did have another we wanted to have them close b/c we are already in baby mode and have baby stuff. It took a year with Logan so we really did not know how long it would take us I thought maybe a little longer than it did but it’s going to work out. Her due date is exactly two years from Logan’s due date July 7^th  crazy that it is the same day. I most likely am going to have to have another C-section that is planned for June 3o but I REALLY want to do a VBAC but I really don’t know what way I’ll have her until she comesJ I might get an Idea at my next appointment in two weeks.  So if you haven’t realized I am pretty far along only have like 8 weeks left I am 32 weeks. I really don’t know why I am struggling with posting this one… I guess because we waited so long to tell everyone that when we finally did it did not seem such a big deal to post, and the fact that I kept thinking about all the cute ways I could post it and could come up with nothing so I just kept blowing it off.  But I decided it’s time b/c I want to post so many other things that are going along with it that I just finally said today is the day.  I had my baby shower for her last weekend and got so many cute outfits it really got me excited to meet this little girl and put her in all her little outfits I am really ready for her to come. I am not sure what to expect Logan we thought would come out way dark with dark curly hair brown eyes but no he is my light hair skin blue eyed adorable little boy. So I really have no clue what she will look like and it’s killing me.  I hope the next weeks come fast (but not too fast I still have a ton of things to get done before she comes.) Here are a few pictures from the shower…

31 weeks